Dump Bugs

During the past couple of days, in addition to being sick, I've also been feeling a little on the down side as well. Not just physically, but emotionally. Tonight when I was talking to Chris on the phone, he couldn't help but notice that I didn't really sound like myself when almost every response I gave him was, "Nice."

I realized that I wasn't completely sure why I felt so down, although I had a few rough ideas of what might be some contributing factors. Despite the fact that Chris asked me why I felt so dumpy, I just couldn't bring myself to tell him. I would open my mouth and nothing but a squeek would come out of it. (Literally.) Partly because I myself wasn't sure of ALL the reasons why I felt bad, and partly because I didn't want to share with him the reasons I knew off hand. I knew he was already tired and stressed from studying for his final all weekend and I didn't want to accidently say something that might make him upset. So I decided to keep my mouth shut.

One thing that has sort of been weighing me down is the fact that I haven't heard the words "I love you" for a long time. In fact, the last time he told me that was through a text message sent on April 27th. (I saved it so that's how I know the exact date.) I remember saying "I love you Chris" a few weeks ago as we were getting ready for bed and he didn't say anything in response. I guess that just sort of threw me off. I mean ... I know he does ... but ... it's been over a month since he's told me that he does. The last time was in April and it's now June. I know maybe he doesn't need to hear it as often as me, and I don't even need to hear it every day or all the time, but it's been over a month and it's sort of been eating away at me. It just leaves this tiny little ... "uhhh ... does he still love me?" thought flowing through my head. And I haven't told him again since the night he didn't respond.

Another thing is that when I talked to him today, he didn't even ask me if I was feeling better or how I was feeling at all. I felt awful yesterday and had a 104.8 fever as I was heading to bed last night and he didn't ask me anything regarding how I felt when I called him this afternoon. I'm sure he cares ... but the fact that he didn't say anything made me feel like he didn't.

Lately I've been recording songs for fun and posting them on my myspace profile. Last week I posted a song called "Toxic" (Britney Spears,) so that I could test out all the cool special effects. When I told Chris, he said that when he listened to it he didn't even make it half way through the song because he can't stand Britney Spears. I was slightly annoyed that he couldn't even listen to 3 minutes of song so he could hear the cool effects I added, but I let it go because I understood his dislike for Britney. Well today I spent hours recording a new song, "Kissing You" from Romeo and Juliet. I played the piano too! All Chris said about it was, "it's better than the other one. It's not toxic." But what does that mean? He hated "toxic," so what does, "well it's better than the other one" mean? Couldn't he have just said something like, "oh ... I like it!" instead of something that gives the affect of, "oh it's better than the other one which was awful." I mean I don't expect gloating compliments and praise, but I spent hours on it and he just one-upped it from a song he dispised.

Several times on the phone over the past couple of weeks Chris has said something like, "I'm waiting for YOU to say something," or "You can't seem to carry a conversation without me." Now ... you would think that hearing something like that would make me much more talkative. That I'd be like, "oh, yes, I need to say something now!" But instead it's done just the opposite. I just freeze. I immediately get afraid that he thinks I'm boring and when I try to come up with a topic I just freeze! It's like one of those awful dreams where something bad is happening and you need to yell or scream but when you open your mouth nothing comes out. I have things to say, but lately I've been worrying so much about the fact that he thinks I can't carry on a conversation that I literally can't. It's like when some one tells a child that he/she is stupid, and then the child begins to ACT stupid because he/she assumes the person who told them that is right.

Him not saying "I love you" makes me wonder, (and then feel guilty for wondering in the first place,) me being sick and him not even asking anything about how I feel makes me feel like he doesn't care, his rather "blah" sounding compliment about my song makes me wonder if he even liked it at all, and the fact that he has accused me of not being able to carry on a conversation by myself has left me feeling so paranoid that I freeze. I freeze and then feel even worse because I know that my silence probably bores him. And then I begin to think, "He probably knows alot of smart/interesting girls ... why would he want to stay with some one whose boring?"

One completely ridiculous thing that has added to my feelings of inadequacy is a memory from many months ago. Back in early September, I remember reading several old blogs written by Chris' ex during the time that they were dating. Her blogs made their relationship seem so wonderful as she recounted all the wonderful things they did together and for eachother. The same week I read them, Chris' ex sent him a text message telling him that she was still in love with him. I'll admit that for several days I was worried that he would want to leave me to go back to her. Chris assured me that he didn't want to and I believed him. And I still do. That was that. I haven't been worried about him wanting to leave me for her since. But from what I read back then I can still remember all these "wonderful stories" that she told. Like how he suprised her by coming over and welcoming her with a long stemmed red rose, or how he drove all the way over to take care of her when she was sick, or how they had a special hotel and restaurant just for them. I hadn't given any of these stories a second thought since back in September until now. But some how, in my already worried and sad state, I began to think twisted thoughts like, "How come I've never gotten any flowers?" "How come he drove all the way to her apartment to take care of her when she was sick, but when I'm sick he doesn't even ask how I'm feeling?" And "How come we don't have a special hotel? Or restaurant even? Technically they went to the Elephant Bar together first, so that's not really *our* special place." I know it may be utterly ridiculous for me to think things like these, but with all the other things I've been thinking they just happened.

All these things have sort of rolled into one to create what I like to call "the plague of the dump bugs." Each reason and thought is a little dump bug that bites me. Now, some one might be okay after being bitten by only ONE dump bug. But after many bites from many dump bugs, all the poison from the dump bugs begin to coarse through the person's blood and make them sick.

I didn't want to sound selfish and make Chris think that I believe he doesn't care. Because I'm sure he does. I don't want him to think that I'm ungrateful for the things that he HAS done, because I am. That's why I didn't want to explain why I felt down. I was afraid that telling him these things would make things worse. If I don't tell him, then he will be upset at me for not being open and honest. And if I DO tell him, then he might be upset when he hears what I've been thinking. I wouldn't hold it past myself to screw up things with the one guy I really love. But I just can't seem to stop the dump bugs from biting me.

Blah.

Work was awful today. I felt kinda yucky last night before bed, and was still feeling yucky this morning when I woke up. So I took some medicine and by the time I had to work at 4:30pm my temperature was down to 101.5. However, working 8 hours in the chaos known as the Elephant Bar on a Saturday night is NOT a good way to recover. By the time I was done I felt a million times worse and as I was driving home just now, I felt so weird ... like I would be driving and I'd forget what just happened. I'd be like ... 'was that light I just drove through green? I think so' ... that's so terrible! Blagh. And I have to be back at work tomorrow morning. I must go to bed now ... yes this blog is "blah" because that's how I feel at the moment. Oh well.

Must ... Get ... zZZZZ

I've been sitting at my computer for over 6 hours uploading all my cds onto my computer. Now, at 3am, 650 songs later, I think it's time I went to bed. The depressing part is, is that I don't think I'm even half way done ... BLAHHH.

My throat is starting to hurt. I hope I'm not getting sick ... that would be BLAHHH.

Woah, technically right now it's June 1st! I can't believe it's already June!

To bed ... must ... get ... sleep ... neeeeed sleeeep ... zzzzzz

Oh What a Tuesday Afternoon

Yesterday Chris and I saw the movie '28 Weeks Later.' I remember seeing the first one, '28 Days Later' with Coon a few years back. We both found it to be pretty retarded. But Chris insisted that it should be given a chance because it recieved a %71 review on Rottentomatoes.com (even though the first one sucked and it got an %89 rating.) It was definetly better than the first one, and it was a farely decent horror sci-fi zombie film. In fact, I admit to hiding my face in Chris' shoulder a few times during the film, watching it through a sliver through my hair. For some reason, it makes it a little less scarey if you can't see much, or can only see a little bit. :P Ultimately the main plot of the movie is the quest for survival, but if you like zombie and/or horror films, you might want to see it. It sorta freaked me out. :P

Because Chris is a big fan of the fish at Long John Silver's, I finally let him take me out to eat there. (I've had an intense fear of that restuarant ever since I went there like 10 years ago ... ) I got a sampler platter which included battered fish, shrimp, hush puppies, french fries, and half an ear of corn. The fish was pretty good ... but the shrimp was just okay in my opinion. The french fries were good, (much like McDonalds,) and the hushpuppies I didn't really care for because they tasted a bit like stuffing, (something I'm not a huge fan of.) I also got a side order (I know I ordered alot of food! hehehe) of battered jalepeno cheese bites. Those were GOOOOD. Mmmmm yummy. So overall, it was okay. Not as terrifying as I remembered, but everything was a bit too "battered and fried." I could actually hear my arteries clogging with each and every bite. :P

I was really horrified as I was watching the Miss Universe pageant last night. During the evening gown competition, (which would narrow it from 10 down to 5 women,) Miss USA SLIPPED and fell right on her BUTT. Yes, embarassing. But what's even MORE embarassing is that she got a higher score than over half the girls- girls who DIDN'T make an arse of themselves by falling on their rears. I mean, the evening gown competition is SUPPOSED to be judged on how poised, elegant, and confident you are. WHAT the hell. Chris and I were so horrified. At LEAST she didn't win (4th runner up.) Miss Japan won.

Over the weekend Chris told me he thought he might have skin cancer on his back because he noticed two dark freckle/moles on his back that he didn't remember seeing before. I looked at them, and told him they weren't skin cancer. With my fair skin, and having gotten several severe burns in my day, I've become MUCH more aware of skin cancer and taking precautions to prevent it. I've done research on how to tell what might be a sign of skin cancer. Of course, there are three types of skin cancner, the first being Basal cell carcinoma. It accounts for approximately 75 percent of all skin cancers. This highly treatable cancer starts in the basal cell layer of the epidermis (the top layer of skin) and grows very slowly. Basal cell carcinoma usually appears as a small, shiny bump or nodule on the skin - mainly those areas exposed to the sun, such as the head, neck, arms, hands, and face. It commonly occurs among persons with light-colored eyes, hair, and complexion. The second, Squamous cell carcinoma, accounts for about 20 percent of all skin cancer cases. Although more aggressive than basal cell carcinoma, this cancer is highly treatable. It accounts for about 20 percent of all skin cancers. Squamous cell carcinoma may appear as nodules or red, scaly patches of skin, and may be found on the face, ears, lips, and mouth. Finally, Malignant melanoma accounts for 4 percent of all skin cancers. Malignant melanoma starts in the melanocytes - cells that produce pigment in the skin. Malignant melanomas usually begin as a mole that then turns cancerous. This cancer may spread quickly. Malignant melanoma most often appears on fair-skinned men and women, but persons with all skin types may be affected. The chart shows how to destinguish benign moles from melanoma ... Alright, I've babbled enough! With summer approaching, put on your sun screen!!! :P

Pirates

Oh yeah, Chris, his family, and I went to go see the new Pirates, At World's End movie on Thursday night. I liked it better than part two, but I found the whole Calypso thing kind of stupid. And her ending was so lackluster! I mean ... she grows all gigantic at the end just like Ursula from 'The Little Mermaid' and I atleast expected her to get into the ocean and start commanding the waves or SOMETHING! lol ... but no. Instead she just explodes into a million little crabs and that's the end of her. And the little petty fight between Orlando and Keira was kinda annoying. As Chris said, there was too much unnecessary backstabbing.

However, I really enjoyed all the multiple Jack Sparrows, (who wouldn't, afterall, enjoy seeing a ship full of nothing but Jack Sparrows?) Hehehehe. And of course there were many other good parts, but I don't want to babble TOO much for those who haven't see it.

My Rant of the Week

I'm slightly annoyed right now. No no- I'm quite annoyed. Actually, I'm VERY annoyed right now. Why, you might ask? Because I just checked my monthly phone bill on the Cingular website, and my bill (which is usually $49 a month,) is $150 this month!!! *&%$#@! Why? Because my lovely friend whose currently living in London decided to give me a ring. And as lovely as the not-so-long conversation was, it was NOT worth $100!!! I mean ... AHHHHHH!!! I'm ... very annoyed. That's an entire month's worth of gas money and THEN some! I'm huffing and puffing right now. As you can see ... or rather ... READ.

I'm also annoyed because I ordered something for $79 in the mail that was SUPPOSED to arrive on WEDNESDAY, and it's now FRIDAY, (although technically it's SATURDAY at 1:35am) and it HASN'T arrived! With my luck, it got LOST in the mail. I'm ... very annoyed.

Work was slower than usual for a Friday night ... I'm ... very annoyed.

Jordin Sparks won American idol. Arrrgh. Yuck. I'm ... very annoyed.

I'm $150 (possibly $79 more if I don't get my package,) OVER budget this month. Ahhhh ... I'm ... (you guessed it,) VERY annoyed.

I Predict ...

Ok so after viewing the first half of the American Idol finale tonight, I predict that Jordin will one. Personally, I like Blake better because of his originality (I spelled it right just for you Chris :P) But because the final song they both had to sing was much better suited for Jordin's voice and style, she of course did a better job. That AND the fact that she pulled a Carrie Underwood and started crying at the end of her song. I was like, "DAMN. Why did she have to freak'in start crying? Now she's gonna win!" Arrrrg. On the bright side, I DID burn 700 calories on the treadmill while watching it ... :P

Finale Tonight!

I'm so freak'in puuuumped! :P

I'm figuring out how to use the garageband program that came preinstalled on my computer, and it's soooooo cool! There's TONS of different really neat effects to use, and it's also REALLY easy to record. I don't even need to buy a microhpone! AND it's so easy to put my songs that I record on iTunes ... ohhhh yeah baby. I've already put a really old and slightly junkey version of myself singing my new myspace profile song ... hehehe. Hopefully within the next couple of weeks, I will have finished and recorded an "original" to replace it with! Boo ya!

I also forgot that the American Idol finale was tonight until I was driving home from work (I drive by Hollywood Blvd. every day by the Kodak Theatre,) and there were of course already TONS of people lined up along the red carpet. I thought about going, but 3 hours before it was even to begin it was already BUTT crowded. I decided I'd rather just watch it from the comfort of walking/running on the treadmill. :P

Late Night Babble Fest

Last night my rommates Kara, Lesley and I were all sitting around talking. I can't remember what we were talking about, but Lesley suddenly farted and then we started talking about farts, which lead to us all discussing poop. STEAMING poop actually. She mentioned that she had a steaming turd a few days ago and I was all horrified because I wasn't aware that humans pooped steaming turds. So I spent about 30 minutes on google trying to figure out why turds steam. I still haven't figured it out. :P

Then we transitioned from talking about turds to a more "serious" discussion. Lesley started talking about how she is mad at God because all the things she's been asking for haven't happened. She was like, "I know God takes care of me, but I haven't seen anything big yet. I haven't been given anything I've asked for. I want a miracle!" (Part of the "miracle" would be getting 1.5 million dollars so she and Kara can move into this Santa Monica home they want to buy at the end of the summer.) But ... you DON'T always get what you ask for. Some times what we ask for is NOT what we need. She's also a bit unhappy because her acting career hasn't taken off yet. She said she "knows God has something big planned, but she doesn't know when it's going to happen" and that bugs her. She seems pretty unhappy with how things are going. She doesn't seem to be enjoying the journey she has to take before "big things" start to happen. But "the journey" is often the most important part!

For instance, I want a successful event/wedding planning bussiness. I would love for "big things" to happen with it right now. But I have to work towards that before it happens- and I'm loving the journey! I love looking at wedding magazines and getting new ideas. I love working on my "inspirational ideas" wedding notebook. I like coming up with a business plan and setting goals to achieve. "The journey" makes you appreciate things more (and you learn alot too!) For instance, I would have LOVED to have had a brand new computer 9 months ago instead of having to go to the library every day and often WAIT to use the computers (AND you have a time limit on them.) BUT, having been doing the library thing for such a long time has made me truly appreciate the brand new computer I just got. I LOVE it!

She's also unhappy because she wants a boyfriend NOW because she wants to get married. I mean ... her marriage clock is seriously ticking! In fact, I have another friend whose marriage clock is also ticking. He desperately is trying to find "that woman" so he can get married. He's always seeking, always dating around to find that special some one. But the funny thing is, it's usually when you're "not" looking that things start to happen! When I met Chris I was definetly NOT looking. Looking was the furthest thing from my mind. In fact, when I met Chris I desperately wanted OUT of the relationship I was in and to be single. But, it just happened! (and I'm glad that it did!) :P

Anyway, I'm totally babbling. :P

OH and today was amazing. I had grilled cheese sandwhiches with tomato soup (YUM) and watched Donald Duck cartoons while working on my wedding notebook and talking to Chris. All my favorite things! Chris, Food, Donald Duck, and wedding planning. AND I had a white mocha from Starbucks. Now if I had a Michelle and a Mizzy, the day would have been perfect! :)

Fun Day

Today Chris stopped by for the afternoon since he had a job interview that was sort of in my area, and we ate lunch at Johnny Rockets (which I had actually never been to,) and it's right next door to me in the Farmer's Market! It was VERY tastey. Basically, it's sort of like a Steak'N'Shake. The decor, the atmosphere, the servers even wear bow ties! And their burgers were DAMN good. I was very pleased. I couldn't believe I hadn't eaten there yet after almost living next to it for about 10 months!

After lunch we came back and watched a movie, (for the FIRST time in my apartment!) Ever since I moved in, we haven't had a dvd player because it apparently got stollen after my roommate left it in the commons area ... soooo yeah ... haven't been able to watch movies. WELL I can NOW watch movies on my beatiful 20" iMAC! Very exciting. We watched 'Elf,' and although it WAS quite cheesy, it was pretty funny.

We also recorded little mini movies on my computer with Chris talking in chipmunk voice and slow motion, where I was SERIOUSLY amused. This computer is going to be providing me with HOURS of entertainment. :P

Tonight at the Elephant Bar, I had a table of 9 people. They basically just ordered a couple appetizers and some drinks. Lots and LOTS of drinks. SO many drinks in fact, that they spent about $300 in alcoholic beverages alone. Their bill was about $375, and they left me a $100 tip. Now THAT was nice. I also got a $20 tip from some french guy on a $50 bill. That makes me very happy. Especially since my wallet got seriously drained this week.

WELL I should probably go to bed soon ...

UPDATE!

I would just like to start off by saying that I'm typing this blog from the comfort of my own bedroom. That's right, I said bedroom! WHICH means I'm obviously NOT in the library, WHICH means I got my computer! :D

It's ... beautiful. And it was SO easy to set up. All I had to do was plug in ONE chord from the computer to the wall and then connect the mouse/keyboard. That's it! All the programs were already installed and I didn't even have to hook it up to anything for the internet to work! The internet just ... worked!!! And there's an AWSOME movie/dvd making program on here already along with a super cool music and photo program too. OH oh! And there's already a webcam/video capture thingy built INTO the computer! AND I can BURN not just cds, but dvds too! AND I can now hook my keyboard up to the computer and record all my songs onto my computer and burn them onto cds. AND I can now, for the FIRST time, watch dvds in my BED!!! I am SOOOO watching Donald Duck cartoons tonight! And, I'm so excited. Happy times.

There's MORE! :P

I just found the type of desk I want, if not the desk I want, for $40 less then I had budgeted!

And I also found the super cute kind of chair that I want for $139, which is $20 less then I had budgeted ... I I'm going to save $60! Hehehe. I'll spare everyone from looking at the two "guest chairs" that I want for $50 each. :P

My Dilemma

The benefits of working (or shall I say, having worked), at Starbucks just keep rolling in! Despite the fact that I quite almost 3 months ago, I still recieve free beverages from the wonderful partners at my store. And as if free white chocolate mochas and chai tea lattes weren't good enough, a few days ago I recieved a lovely little card in the mail from Starbucks telling me all about their "partnership with iTunes and Apple." I recieved a free playlist of songs (7 new songs,) to download, in addition to another free song of my choice. To add to that, I'm also apparently still elegible for discounts on Apple Prodcuts, like the iMac I want! (You have to either be a current employee of Starbucks, or an "alumni" employee of Starbucks.) You can also "extend" your discount priviledges to friends and family!

Anyway after all this babbling, the point is is that the iMac I want would cost me $1,410 with my discount and $1,499 without it. In order to use the discount, I would have to order it online from the Apple store (with free shipping.) So NOW I don't know whether to order it online and save $88, or to just buy it from the Apple store within walking distance of my apartment. Having it shipped makes me a wee bit nervous, because the mail delivery people around here seem quite retarded at times. The last package I recieved in the mail was in horrendous condition when it arrived. It had a gigantic tear in the top of the box- it's a wonder all the contents didn't come spilling out!

Oh what to do what to do ... is saving $88 really worth the risk of having it shipped by people who throw packages around because they don't care that things might break just as long as it gets delivered?

:::sigh:::

Hmmm

Included on Time's list of the '100 most influential people' are Leonardo DiCaprio, Rosie O'Donnell, Kate Moss, and Hilary Clinton. But, George W. Bush is not included! I agree with my dad who said, "Whether you like George W. Bush or not is irrelevant. You mean to tell me he is not one of the 100 most unfluential people? Sounds like major bias to me. (Or denial.)"

My poor Chris is completely worn-out from working full-time and completing his masters. He really doesn't do anything but work and watch the occasional movie ... that's why I'm extremely excited that a.) He's finishing his last class in the next couple weeks, b.) It's almost summer, and c.) He's coming home with me for almost TWO WEEKS of NO WORKING! Working will NOT be allowed under ANY circumstances.

And I get so annoyed with all the girls who I work with that are always complaining by saying things like, "I haven't seen my boyfriend for TWO days, can I PLEASE leave early so I can go see him?" I just want to say, "Oh ... TWO WHOLE days huh? I get to see my boyfriend more like once every TWO WEEKS!" Grrrrr.

And while I'm complaining about my poor boyfriend and my lack of getting to see him, I might as well complain about my leg hurting. Yes ... for the past couple of days my right leg has been hurting ... it's the outer SIDE of my leg around the knee area, (although it's NOT the knee, it's the side/almost back of my leg in that area.) And yes. It hurts. When I do the stretch where you grab your foot and hold it up against your butt it really hurts (it normally doesn't.) It has a sore yucky feeling. Oh and stiff feeling. Let's not forget stiff. Some times straightening it hurts too. I'm hoping it's just stressed from too much exercise. Okay I'm done for the day.

And no ... I don't know what a Cookie Monster picture has to do with this blog. Maybe it just means that I want a damn cookie!

More Blathering

I'm so excited about the prospect of getting a computer of my very own (I've never HAD a computer of my very own,) that well, I'm going to blather some more about it! :P

I just realized yesterday when talking to Chris that the iMAC that I plan on getting has no "computer" box! That big, bulky box that takes up either all your foot space or all your desk space, is actually the monitor! Which is what ... like 1 and 1/2 inches thick? And and ... the keyboard and mouse are wirelss! In fact, there's no wires at all! I remember setting up the computer Roger and I bought when I first came here was a major pain in the arse. All the different parts, chords, and cables! But ... you can just take this computer out of the box and start using it! And OH the movie making/dvd making/music/and a crap load of other stuff that it comes with is LOVELY! It really IS as good as those commercials. :P

I Love Mondays

Ahhh ... I finally have enough to purchase this!

I can't decide when I should get it ... I might wait another month or two ... but I'm BUTT excited about it! :D AND this will mean that one of the biggest "start-up expenses" for my business will be paid for!

I love Mondays. Almost everyone I know hates them, because it means that the weekend is over and the work week is starting again. But for me, I WORK all bloody weekend long and Monday is my day off. Yay for Mondays!

Well I'm off ... to the Apple Store that is ... mehhhh he he he he ...

New Profile

I'm sure most of you know this by now, but I have a new myspace profile (with lots of new pictures!) My old profile layout got all sorts of messed up and I couldn't fix it, so I have a new one. Please add me if you haven't already!

http://www.myspace.com/186711102

Anyhow this is short because I need to get some things done before work. Booo on work, boooo!

I'm COMING HOME!

Hey everyone!
Mark your calenders! :P I will be in Missouri on Thursday, July 5th until Monday, July 16th! Chris also bought a plane ticket which means he's coming along too! :D (Unless for some reason he can't ...)

Woo hoo!

Music Makes/Brakes the Movie

So ... how do I begin?

Growing up one of the classic horror films that I was introduced to at a young age was 'Night of the Living Dead.' I remember having sleepovers with my friend Chrissy ... we would pop some popcorn, snuggle up in our sleeping bags, and pop in some good 'ol horror films. I remember one time we almost woosed out while watching 'Night of the Living Dead' before the opening credits were even over! My point is, 'Night of the Living Dead' as a cinematic horror classic.

Chris purchased the newer 30th anniversary edition of the movie, (released in 1998,) because it was only $5! (That and the picture quality was supposed to be better.) Other then that, it was the same horror film that we all grew to know and love. Oh ... except the fact that an "all new musical score" had been created for the film. :::sigh::: (and that's not a GOOD sigh either.)

Usually, the opening scene when Johnny and Barbara are in the graveyard puting a memorial on their father's grave is chilling. While Barbara kneels to pay rememberance to her father, thunder begins to roll in the backround as her brother Johnny begins to reminesce about their childhood memories of being in the graveyard and how they used to get "really scared." Barbara starts feeling uneasy as Johnny begins teasing her by saying, "They're coming to get your Barbara ... they're coming for you!" Then from across the lonely graveyard a man starts walking towards them. Slowly. "They're coming to get your Barbara ... look! Here comes one of them now!" Only, it really IS a zombie. Johnny wrestles the ghoul only to be knocked unconcious by hitting his head on a grave stone. Barbara is left to fend for herself as she is chased through the country side in the opening scene. BUT- THEN the "all new musical score" starts.

Ahhhh yes, the musical score. What can I say about the new music that they replaced the PERFECTLY good origional score with? It ... SUCKED!!!! It sounded like a REALLY bad 80's horror movie, like one of the extra crappy 'Friday the 13th' movies. In fact, the music was so loud and horrible that it COMPLETELY distracted you from the entire scene. Usually I get chills when I watch that scene. THIS time, however, I couldn't decide whether I wanted to laugh or cry. (Laugh because the music turned the scene into more of a comedy scene, or cry because of how AWFUL it was.) I seriously almost told Chris to turn the movie off.

Unfortunetly, this terrible new musical score was scattered ALL throughout the movie, in ADDITION to bits and pieces of the orgional musical score so NOT ONLY did the music switch from 80's to 60's, but you could actually COMPARE how awful the new soundtrack was to the origional!!!! I cried inside.

And THAT, my friends, shows how the musical soundtrack of a movie can either make or BRAKE the film. (In this case, it broke the film to pieces.)

Burn Baby Burn!

Today as I was driving home from work I passed yet another one of the Hollywood hills on fire, and I think it was a "fresh" fire because I didn't see any firemen yet. As glamorous as living in the Hollywood hills sounds, I think I'd rather not live some where that seems to get daily red flag (fire) warnings
almost daily during the summer.

Today at work, I was serving two guys, although only one of them was eating. He ordered the Tai Hi Sweet and Spicey Salad and that was it. The bill was $9.25, and he left me a $10.25 tip. Woo hoo! Sweeeeeet! :D

Tonight on American Idol the guest artist that helps the contestants this week is none other than Barry Gibb! Hehehe! Which means all the contestants will be singing BeeGees songs tonight, and Barry Gibb will be performing tomorrow night. Tune in!

I think getting my wedding planning business name trademarked is going to be a pain in the butt ... I can tell ... meeeehhh.

I'm hungry. Time for lunch. Fooood!

Fat Albert Gone BAD

I sat here at the library just now and witnessed one of the most disgusting, nasty, and repulsive displays of behavior I've ever seen!

This guy who was sitting at the computer station across from me was blowing his nose. Not gross right? I mean, we all blow our noses when we have colds! WELL. This guy was not only blowing his nose, but was throwing his overly used snot rags down on the table next to other people. We're talking a big MOUND of snot rags. About 15 snot rags to be exact. (Think I'm kidding? The guy left about 10 minutes ago, but left his snot rags ON THE TABLE for everyone to look at.) In addition, this guy was snorting and hawking up massive loogeys right there at the computer. And I do mean, RIGHT there at the computer. I witnessed him hawking and spitting a nasty looking snot-infused loogey onto the library floor. I mean ... WTF?!?!

He was constantly snorting, hawking, and spitting his nasty-ass crap everywhere. I'm so repulsed. I couldn't tell how old he was ... he kinda looked like Fat Albert. In his 20's? YUCK. Okay I'm going to stop grossing everyone out because I'm grossing myself out.

On a less snotty note, my dad is giving me a "small business grant!" :D I sent him a copy of my 'business plan and start-up costs,' (the same one I put in this blog,) and he was like, "I'm sending you a small business grant!" At this point, any bit of money helps. Yay!

Okay, I need a giant, brain-freezing Coke slurpee from 7-11 right now to recover from the horrific display I had to witness earlier. BLahhh!

Cinco de Mayo and Desperate Men

Happy Cinco de Mayo everyone! Not that I really celebrate Cinco de Mayo ... I guess I'll be celebrating it by helping others to celebrate it by working at The Elephant Bar tonight! Although I must admit I'm not really looking foward to driving home late after work when there's probably going to be a million drunk drivers out tonight. Grrr.

On Thursday I had a man who looked about 40-ish hit on me as I was walking out of the library. I was walking at a nice brisk pace to go home and from across the parking lot a man says, "Hello!" so of course being the polite person that I am IO respond by going, "Hi!" (but I kept walking.) Well, the man (probably about 5'5", hispanic looking, bit of a gut, short black and slightly receding hair line,) immediately runs over to me and is like, "Oh! I've been seeing you in the library for quite some time now and I've wanted to approach you but I figured you'd just blow me off!" Already I'm thinking, I wish I WOULD have blown you off. "So," he continues, "do you work at Whole Foods? I think I've seen you there," "-no." "Oh ... well are you from California?" "No, not really. Missouri." "Well," he said as he looked me up and down VERY obviously, "you've got a great bod!" Oh god. "Uhhh ... thanks." At this point I take a step foward, indicating that I'm trying to head on my merry way. But no. "Do you work out?" "Yes, and I do Kung Fu." Why do I keep answering his questions? "Well," he said "I play soccer. It gets the oxygen flowing to the brain." All the while very obviously continueing to look me up and down. At this point I'm highly annoyed. Then he asks. "Can I take you out to coffee?" to which I VERY quickly replied, "Sorry I have a boyfriend." He looked like his hopes had been crushed. "Oh ... well I've been watching you for some time and I sorta hoped you were eligible." Eligible? "No sorry, definetly not eligible." "Well, he's a lucky guy because you look great." It was time to start lying. "Right well, I need to go because I'm a bit late for work." Let's just say that as I tried to leave, he continued to look me up and down just ONE more time and tell me that I had a 'great bod' just ONE more time. HONESTLY! Yuck. I was so violated. I immediately called Chris in utter flusteration and left a flustered messagse. Ewww.

On a less yucky note, I'm planning a delicious meal to cook for him (him being Chris, not the yucky 40-ish man I just spent the last paragraph talking about.) :P I think it will be the most complicated dish I've tried to cook yet! I'm going to "test drive" my idea on Tuesday with my roommie Kara to make sure it doesn't end up tasting like crap. :P

Just ahhh.

Fruity summer cocktails here I come! :D

Yesterday I bought a lovely martini set, (cocktail shaker, strainer, jigger, 4 nice martini glasses and a cute black serving tray) for only $12.99! And it's not like cheap crap either. Everything is really nice! My roommie Kara has already "hired" me as the bartender for a party she's hosting next Tuesday, lol. No but really ... summer ... fruity cocktails by the pool ... ahhhh.

Doodely Da Doo

I'm a little peeved because I got invited to go to the premiere screening of the new Bruce Willis and Queen Latifah movie on Friday (complete with the red carpet and question and answer session with the actors,) and I have to work at the bloody Elephant Bar! Gah! And it's a bit doubtful that I'll find some one to cover for me because I noticed that about 4 other people already posted notes at work looking for some one to work for them on Friday with no luck. Meehhh.

Does anyone else have random outbursts? For example ... some times at work when I'm in the back area I'll suddenly say, "Cuuuuh-ris!" or I'll let out a little random squeel of cuteness (about Chris of course.) Or occasionally I'll randomly just blurt out, "Michelle Gabelle!" Hehehehe. I mean ... does Christy ever sit in the library and find herself randomly blurting out Rudy's name for no apparent reason? Does Esther or Resther blurt out Andrew or Jesse's names at random times? Does Michelle ever blurt out- ... you know who? Hehehe! Or am I just a total freak? :P

I'm really sad that Easter is over because that means that my favorite candy of all time, (Cadbury Cream Eggs, of course,) are already GONE!!! It's so tortuous to have my favorite candy avaibale only one month out of the year. :::sigh:::

Two-Lips!

Today on Martha Stewart's website, (just shut-up, hehe) they have a super yummy looking recipe for a fruity sangria cocktail, and irish coffee chocolate truffles! Mmmmm!!!! SOOO yummy. One day, I will move beyond just buying ramen, yogurt, and cerial and into buying REAL ingredients for super yummy recipes like these!!! :D

Spring always gets me in the mood to garden. (Even though I ... currently don't have a garden to garden in.) :( When I was younger, one of my favorite times of the year was during the spring when my mom and I would go pick out and buy all different types of flowers and plant them in our garden. I always had SO much fun! I loved it. Some day I want to have a tulip garden. When my mom was teaching us about Holland I always loved looking at all the huge brightly colored tulip gardens. Ahhh. So pretty. Tulips are one of my favorite flowers, especially the brightly colored ones, like the yellow/red ones.

I'm feeling sluggish today. I need to get my arse motivated to exercise tonight. Blahh.

Preparation

In preparation for my wedding business, I'm always in the process of gathering ideas for weddings. I'm making a notebook of "Inspirational Ideas" filled with pictures, ideas, ect. If anyone ever has a great idea for a wedding theme, or anything wedding/party related, let me know!

I could definetly babble longer, but my library time is up. :::grumbles::: Hopefully by the end of the summer, I'll have my OWN computer!!!

I May Have a Problem ...

It's funny how almost everyone looks foward to the weekends and are always saying, "Thank god it's Friday!" when weekends are usually my most dreaded part of the week because that's when I work the most ... which is a shame because of course that's the only time Chris has off. As I like to say, "Thank god it's almost summer!" :P

Speaking of summer, it's finally starting to feel more like summer this week. Last week it felt unseasonably cool for California this time of year. Not that we didn't need a little bit of rain ...

Ok ... I'm worried about myself. "I'm having a problem. I may be having a problem." (Just like Bill Murray said in 'Ground Hog Day', hehe.) So ... I like to visit MarthaStewart.com. Yes, you heard me right. But, it's SUCH a nifty site! Every day there's new video recipes, (today they have recipes for baked pasta, cute vanilla cupcakes, and poppy-seed panckaes) Plus there's a section on weddings, crafts, holidays, entertaining, home decorating, shopping, and gardeing! All the things I love! Now, you may be wondering why this is a problem. Well ... the other day in Barnes'N'Noble I wanted to buy the Martha Stewart 'Housekeeping Handbook.' Yes. A book about homekeeping tasks. AHHHH! Hahaha. Oh dear. But I didn't buy it. Wew.

Pointless-ness

Last night, Chris and I watched the movie 'Stranger than Fiction,' which was quite enjoyable! It was the perfect time to watch the movie ... April is the month of tax returns ... and the movie is about a worker for the IRS! Hehehe. Yeah that's a dumb and totally unrelated point ... but it was a good movie nonetheless.

I'm currently watching 'Moulin Rouge' as Chris sits on the couch eating a humburger. I simply love watching the Duke singing 'Like a Virgin' as he dances around in his black and rose colored robe.

Chris said today I'm spoiled because my dad payed for my college tuition. AND because he set up a retirement fund for me. AND a fund for when I get married. However, I disagree. I call it being well-prepared. :P

Okay, I've babbled enough about 3 rather pointless topics and now I'm off to ... uhh ... to um ... hmmm ... come to think of it ... I don't know WHAT I'm going to do next!

Me = Happy Cookie

Things have been running smoother for me lately. A few months ago, I was so unbelievably stressed about everything. I would even find myself getting depressed easily, which ... isn't normal for me because I'm a happy person! :D lol

I was stressed and felt restless because I didn't know what I wanted to do career-wise, and now I finally think I've made my decision! It's not that I'm "giving up on acting," in fact, I still love acting. But I've realized it's just not something I want to do for a living. I don't feel like I've waisted time by moving here for that reason, in fact I've met alot of wonderful people here, like my boyfriend Chris! I also don't feel like, "oh ... I didn't make it in Hollywood. I'm such a loser!" because well ... it's not that I gave up, I just felt/feel more strongly and passionate about my event planning business. Which I'm very excited about by the way!

The other day when I took my car in for the 120K service check (which cost $540,) the guy at the car dealership told me that my car "burns oil" faster than normal and that I should "probably fix it immediately" and that it would "only cost" $1,800. At which point I laughed to myself and thought, that's why I'll just check my oil regularly myself to make sure I don't run out, and replace it myself. Yes that's right, I laughed to myself when he told me I needed to spend an extra $1,800. Am I going to spend that? HELL no! And if that had happened a few months ago, I would have cried. I probably would have stood at the counter and started bowling. I would constantly worry about my car having another problem and the fact that I wouldn't have enough money to fix it. Since then I've decided that EVERY time you take your car in some where, they will ALWAYS tell you that something needs to be replaced/fixed. Well I am NOT going to let the money/car factor be a CONSTANT worry in my life anymore. Really, there's more important things. And worrying doesn't do anything productive. I know it's easier said than done, but I've been really good about it lately. And I feel so much better!

AND I just realized that after I pay my bills for May, in addition to having $1,000 reserved for emergencies, I'll have about $1,400 extra. WHICH means I'm much closer to buying my computer then I thought! I'd just like to have about $500 extra so I don't come so close to taking out of my emergency funds. And THAT ladies and gentlemen, is exciting.

(The picture is me, by the way. I'm one happy cookie.) :P

My Legs = 2 Blocks of Lead

I think I need to stop going running right before Kung Fu class. I always run anywhere from 4-6 miles right before class and so my legs are already tired before I even start. THAT'S what happened last night. My legs felt like two blocks of lead that just couldn't get off the ground ... especially during kicking drills which I did horrible at last night. :P Thank goodness there aren't any mirrors for me to watch myself in, I would have been horrified, haha. Although, Sifu DID teach me a new segment of the two-section staff form. Woo hoo! :D

Speaking of running ... I need to go do that before work tonight ... mehhhh. Blah.

It's rather cold and rainy out ... I'd much rather crawl into my nice cozy bed and take a nap. :::sigh:::

Start-Up Costs

Not that anyone really cares, but I like to write everything out for my own sake. :P I've sort of come up with a rough idea of start-up costs for my business:

Things I'll need:
- Computer (Mac, desktop) $1,500+
- Copier/Printer/Scanner $100 (usually you get deals when you buy a computer.)
- Fax Machine $220
- 4 Drawer Vertical File Cabinet $150
- Business Cards $20
- Business Stationary $20
- Pens, pencils, paper, stapler, scissors, tape, paper clips, 1/2" binders etc. $40
- Desk calculator $20
- Desk and chairs $170 (desk) $150 (my chair) and $100 (two more chairs)
- Business License $45
- Website $170
- Interior Decoration $120

Grande Total: $2,825

Hmmm ... not bad! Currently, I'm saving for the computer ... which ... is pretty much the biggest cost. I have several hundred saved towards that so far. (I'd have MORE but I've spent $1,300 on my car in the past 3 months. GRRR.)

The Entrepreneur in Me

Even though I'm not planning on starting my business until I know where I'll be living at least some what long term, (since it would be pointless to work so hard to get your business off the ground only to MOVE some where else,) I went ahead and came up with a rough draft busniess plan anyway. AND I've been working on figuring out the start-up costs so I have a rough idea of how much money I'll need to have saved.

MY BUSINESS PLAN:

Business Name: I have one but I'm not listing it incase some one sees this blog and decides to steal it. :P

Legal Matters: Sole Proprietorship, I'm going to be my OWN boss! :P

Business Location: Working from home (the cost of paying a couple extra hundred for a TWO bedroom apartment would cost MUCH less then RENTING a commercial space.)

Services I will provide:
- FREE 30 minute Initial Consultation
- Full Service Wedding Planning
- Wedding Day Coordination
- Wedding Consultations
- Partial Wedding Services

What I will charge: (a ROUGH idea, although depending on where I live, prices will probably change according to what local competitors are charging.)
- Consultation only (3 hours): $150
- Flat fee for wedding day coordination: $500
- Flat fee for specific services (such as vendors): $150+ per vendor
- Partial wedding services hourly fee: $50/hour
- Full service wedding planning
* Weddings w/ budgets of $15,000 and above: %15
* Weddings w/ budgets below $15,000: haven't figured it out yet. :P

Advertising/Marketing
- Portfolio
- Website
- Brochures
- Business Cards
- Yellow Pages
- Family/Friends
- Bridal Shows
- Press Releases
- Local Papers

And there you have it! My initial rough draft business plan. I have some "additional" ideas for services and things I will provide to make my business unique, but I don't want to babble them all over the internet. Classified information, you know. :P

Inspiration Hits

I'm feeling inspired today. Although ... I felt inspired yesterday too. I'm TOTALLY going to have a wonderful wedding/event planning business of my very own some day! I've decided that I'd like to try and be an event coordinator's assisstant, or work for a company for at least 1-2 years, so that I can gain more experience and contacts. Then when I decide to start my own business, I can keep at least a part-time job in the beginning until I start making enough money on my own. Brilliant! :P

Although ... I was looking online for job openings and I'm finding that most wedding planners don't advertise that type of thing online. I think my best bet is trying to find out through word-of-mouth and referrals. Hmmm ...

I may have to wait awhile before I truly begin job searching anyway since I'm not positive of how much longer I'm going to be living in the area I am now. Small problem ...

And there you have it. My two cents for the day. I could add a couple more dollars, but that might make my head start spinning. :P

Fun Times!

The other day Chris and I went to Six Flags Magic Mountain and it was great! (Well ... after we finally got our tickets and were admitted inside the park, which took nearly TWO hours!!!) Thankfully, we each got "Play Passes," (season tickets for only $59.99!!!) So next time we go we can just walk right in. (YES!)

The first ride we went on was 'Goliath,' one of the park's biggest rollercoasters that's about 266 feet high! SO much fun. Although Chris kept saying, "I hate you" while we were waiting in line. Hehehe. Chris would zone out and try to find a "happy place" when the rollercoaster would make it's long treck up hill. I just love teasing him about it. :P

We also road on 'Tatsu', another super fun rollercoaster where you are suspended like a bug with no track beneath you the entire way. This is another ride where Chris repeatedly said, "I hate you" in line. I've never seen such a look of sheer terror on his face as I did during that ride. :P Although as we were boarding the ride, I ran over to go put my camera on the storage shelf and totally slipped and fell on my butt/side in front of everyone! It was a great moment. Well no ... not really. lol

We also road 'The Scrambler' a couple times where I got to smash Chris against the side of the car and then we road it again and he got to smash me, nearly crushing my ribs! Hahaha. I was Power Ranger laughing during the whole process so that didn't help either. :P

The downside to the day was that it was really, really windy. So windy that they had to shut many of the rollercoasters down early and we didn't get to ride them. :( Oh well. That's why we have SEASON passes! :D

The wind was also cold. VERY cold. While waiting in line for nearly TWO hours to ride 'Viper' I was grasping onto Chris trying to suck is body warmth ... which helped some what. Although even the usually very warm Chris didn't have enough body heat to help the both of us ...I was still BUTT cold.

At the end of the night, we road the good old-fashioned carousel and took some pictures, which I'm sure will turn out to be classics. After walking around the park for almost 10 hours and having had nothing to eat or drink the entire time, we were both ravenous and headed to Denny's for some good 'ol diner food. YUM.

Chris and I also went to go see the new Quentin Tarantino/Robert Rodriguez movie Grindhouse, which was basically two seperate movies with movie previews scattered throughout. It was very interesting and the first half/movie was really entertaining. I enjoyed it alot. The second half was a bit ... boring. I don't have time to write a detailed review of it right now ... so I'll leave it at that for the moment!

So yes, it's been a lovely week. Chris showed me the movie "Dragon Heart" yesterday ... Sean Connery makes a great dragon! :p

Easter Message

My dad recently returned from a trip he took to Israel, and got to visit many historical land marks and see lots of cool things. Anyways, he sent me (and I'm assuming other friends and family,) an Easter card with a little "Easter message" he wrote about what he learned from visiting the Garden of Gethsemane in Jerusalem. I've posted it here in case anybody would like to read it:

"The Garden of Gethsemane is located on the lower slopes of the Mount of Olives, just across the Kidron valley from the east wall of the Old City of Jerusalem. My estimate is that it is only about 225 yards from the east wall of the Old City (as the nightingale flies anyway). The Garden today is well maintained and dominated by ancient olive trees, a number of them estimated to be over 2000 years old! The term 'Gethsemane' means 'oil press.' One presumes that it was the site of many olive trees and of a large oil press in biblical times. The Garden of Gethsemane was undoubtedly considerably larger back in the times of Jesus than it is now.

The Garden was a favorite meeting place for Jesus and his disciples. After the Last Supper, it was the place that Jesus took his disciples (except for Judas). As recounted in the Gospels, it was the site of Jesus' agony, betrayal and arrest. Upon arriving at Gethsemane that night, Jesus apparently left most of the disciples at the entrance, taking Peter, James and John inside with him to pray.

Matthew's gospel says that Jesus began to be sorrowful and troubled. It also says he fell to the ground, where he made a most remarkable statement in his prayer: "My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as your will." [Matthew 26:39] What did he mean by this?

The human side of Jesus knew how difficult the coming hours would be- he was moments away from being arrested, which would quickly be followed by his trial and crucifixion. The God of the universe who came to the earth as a man [Jesus, of course] was about to undergo a humiliating and painful death. The human side of him did not want to drink from the Cup of Divine Wrath, which was to be the punishment for the sins of mankind. Though the "cup" was abhorrent to him, he willingly took it because it was the will of his Father.

What is this Scripture passage really supposed to teach us? I have pondered this since coming home. This is what I believe ...

Jesus, within earshot of three of his disciples, in essance asked God the Father if there was an easier way for humanity to be saved from their sins than for him to die as their sacrifice.

Of course, Jesus knew the answer before he prayed to the Father! Though we do not hear the actual voice of the Father answering, we know that he would have said something like this: 'There is no other way! Jesus, my Son, you have to die for them.'

Had there been an easier payment for our sins, had there been an easier way to restore our fellowship with a perfect holy God- the Father would have spared his one and only Son from experiencing the cup of his wrath. In his prayer, Jesus consciously, deliberately, and voluntarily subjugated all of his human desires to the Father's perfect will.

Any faith that is not grounded in the death of Jesus Christ as payment for our sins is not a faith with any power to save- power to assure us of spending eternity in heaven with the Creator of the universe. Many in the world do not want to believe this, thinking that all supposed paths to god are equally true. Certainly, it is not popular in our day to assert claims of absolute truth. However, that is what the Word of God says repeatedly! We are free to believe it or not. But, each one of us will eventually find out the truth- we need to find out before it is too late.

I personally prefer to have had Jesus drink from the Cup of Divine Wrath for me, rather than for me to have to drink that cup myself. The God of the universe who created you and me loved you and me so much that He died for us!

And the Father raised Jesus up from the dead to show that he was indeed God's son, like Jesus had said, and that his sacrifice had been accepted.

This is the free gift that Jesus promises to all who believe. That is the Gospel message- the Good News. What better news could there be?!

This is what I learned in the Garden of Gethsemane, and is my message to you for this Easter.

April 2, 2007
JBM"

Tootsie Blow Pop

Hehehehe.
Tootsie Blow Pop

Happy Easter!

Happy Easter everyone! I know I know, it's a bit early. But tomorrow I'll be working and Sunday I'll be working, (plus the library will be closed,) so I won't be able to wish everyone a happy Easter then!

:::sigh::: I could really go for some egg dying action. I LOVE dying Easter eggs! SO much fun. And even though I'm old I still love Easter eggs hunts too. :P

Ahhhh well. Maybe next year!

Ahhh ... Lovely.

Today has been lovely! (Aside from the fact that I spent way too much money on myself!)

Since I had today off, I slept in (although not as late as I usually do when I "sleep in,") and then went ... shopping. It was beautiful! Although I think I spent over TWICE as much as I told myself I'd spend. My budget was $65 ...

First, I finally found a really cute pair of new shorts! In addition, I bought a cute pair of black gouche pants ... which I USED to have a pair of ... that is until Chris noticed there was a hole in the butt while playing mini-golf ... (why does everything happen during mini-golf?) THEN they had my favorite type of shorts for running/sleeping/lounging on the CLEARANCE rack for $4.45 so I of course bought a pair of those. To top my buying experience off at that particular store, I splurged on a pair of new shoes to go with my new shorts. I rationalized that I hadn't bought a new pair of shoes, (other than $3 flip-flops) in OVER a year. So it was okay. :P Total spent = $61

To continue my shopping spree, I went to Ulta (cosmetics store,) because I wanted to get some type of deep conditioning treatement for my hair to make it extra soft and purdy! I walked into the store, and this early 30-something guy with frosted highlights in is hair and tight jeans (think Jay Manuel from 'America's Next Top Model,') is like "Can I help you with anything?" So I explained I was looking for something for my hair. Immediately, I could see his eyes light up. "Ohhh! Yes! I have something that would be perfect for you!" So he's showing me this product and is like, "Can I feel your hair?" I nod yes. "Oh giiiiiirl! It is soooo thick! I would just LOVE to work on your hair! Here's my card incase you ever need anything done! And, OMG, this product is going to make your hair feel great! I've been using it on all my clients for 10 years!" Okay. Sold. THEN as I was about to leave, I saw my absolute FAVORITE skin lotion which I've only ever seen online, and I've been puting off buying it for the past year because it's $26 (for me $26 is ALOT for lotion!) But ... I bought it. Total Spent = $45

To cap the afternoon off, I headed over to Forever 21 to get a few accessories for my new outfit. Just some nice earrings and maybe a bracelet. I'd maybe spend $12. Well ... I found the CUTEST spring dress ever! I tried it on and ... damn. It fit perfectly and looked great. Sooo I rationalized that I hadn't bought a new spring dress in at least 2-3 years, so I bought it. I also bought a tank top, TWO pairs of earrings, (had to get a pair for the new dress,) and a bracelet. Total Spent = $65

Which means, my GRANDE TOTAL for today is $171!!! (NOT including the $22 I spent on gas.) :::shudders::: oh well. I needed some new spring clothes, and as I said ... I hadn't bought any shoes or dresses for 2-3 years and well ... we all know I needed to get something to replace the booty shorts. :P Plus the dress is just SO darn cute! :D

I just ate a cream egg. Ahhhhhh. Lovely.

Baby Got BACK - Chris' Edition

Ghetto-booty: a term used when you see a girl with a firm, big, tight packed butt. Ex: "Dawg, look at that girl's ghetto booty!" From The Urban Dictionary.

1) The Ghetto-booty, cradled in its booty shorts, caused me to crash straight into a thick metal fence on my first date with Allison. There was much bleeding of the arm.

2) While we were playing "Cosmic Miniature Golf," which is inside a two-story enclosure and involves dance music and a black light, all I could see was Allison's booty shorts! The white shorts were a bright purple amidst complete darkness. This girl knew what she was doing!

3) When Allison and I went to eat at the Elephant Bar that night, the booty shorts got us a table at the train booths. I hadn't sat there since my birthday two years earlier.

4) Later that night, Allison "accidentally" fell into my arms, as well as clear across my right hand. She sat on me folks, giving me ample access to her thighs and booty. This moment was made possible by the generous contributions of the Booty Shorts Foundation.

5) What guy wouldn't want to love Allison's booty in those short shorts of hers? Or, better yet, what guy wouldn't be proud each time other guys crashed into and over things as they gazed upon his girlfriend's butt.

6) I wouldn't say that booty shorts necessarily give off the "wrong impression." It depends on the impression you're trying to make. If you're trying to say, "I'm dead sexy," then booty shorts are great. If you're trying to make a good impression the first time you meet your boyfriend's father, then booty shorts may not be the best idea.

7) I didn't say Californians refer to booty shorts as "rape shorts," although there are some guys who refer to them that way. It's only natural to assume that danger's involved when flaunting your "goods" at 2 am in the morning. Would you walk through a dangerous neighborhood yelling about how much money you had on you? I think not.

Baby Got BACK

I think Chris and I spent close to an hour yesterday talking about "Booty Shorts." You see, up until last year I was a victim of the so-called "Booty Shorts," unaware of the impression they were giving off and the effects they were having on guys. Here are some of the highlights of the discussion:

When I was in a relationship with Roger, I wore Booty Shorts. (Not to show off my butt, mind you! It's just that every pair I tried on was ... well ... short and the fact that I have a getto-butt didn't help.) Through our conversation I realized:
1. Roger liked my so-called booty shorts. In fact, he would request that I wear them.
2. Chris points out that this was because he liked to "show me off" to other guys. Kinda like Roger going, "You see this? You see this ass? It's MINE ... and I know you want some, but you can't have it!" (Horrified? I sure was!)
3. Roger never said anything to me about my shorts being too short. Ever.

Now, I've been dating Chris for almost a year, and realized even MORE about the infamous shorts.
1. I wore them on our first date. Not too impress, but because it was a hot day. However, the shorts gave Chris the impression that I "wanted him oh-so-badly!" (And so what if I did, :P haha.) The point is, the shorts gave off the wrong impression.
2. I found out that the real reason why Chris crashed into the metal fence while playing mini-golf on our first date (causing his arm to bleed,) was because he was distracted by my arse! (HA.)
3. The first time I met Chris' dad (AND two brothers,) I ... wore the "booty shorts." Chris later told me that his dad was like, "She's a really nice, down-to-earth girl! But ... but those shorts!" (I know, embarrassing.)
4. Chris has now brought to my attention that the shorts give off the wrong impression, (I know I know, call me naive, but I never thought that MY shorts were too short! No ... no not me!)
5. Chris points out that while he loves my butt, the shorts make every other guy want to love my butt too. (And not in a good way.)
6. He also points out that very short shorts have earned the title "rape shorts" here in California. He doesn't feel comfortable with me wearing them out, especially by myself.

Conclusion:
Booty Shorts are good if you want to give guys the wrong impression. Booty Shorts are also good if you want to possibly get raped late at night. Therefore, I should not be wearing booty shorts because I'm "not that kind of girl," and I don't want to get raped. My boyfriend cares enough about me to point this out. Hmmm. I love my boyfriend. :)

The First of the Month Means ...

Bills bills bills. What else can I say besides I don't feel like paying them at the moment? Mehhh.

Right now I'm off to maybe get a new pair of shorts for the upcoming warm spring/summer weather. Afterall, the current pairs of shorts I own right now are "booty shorts" according to Chris. I mean ... I can't help it that shorts happen to ride up my butt because it's so large! :P

I had something insightful to say, but I seem to have lost it. Hmmmm. Maybe later. :P

Twister

I want to go home for the next 3 months!!! Why? Because it's approaching one of my favorite times of year: STORM SEASON!!! Which .... I will be missing. Again. So sad. May is usually the prime month, but April and June are great too. And I'm not just talking about tornadoes, I mean thunderstorms too! I could really go for a great thunderstorm right about now.

Ahhh ... Noise.

Having your apartment right next to CBS studios has it's downfalls ... for instance ... the noise. My bedroom window is literally hanging right over the CBS lot and well ... quite frankly it's ANNOYING because a vast majority of the time, I wake up to the sound of table saws, hammering, and people building sets. In addition, they're currently remodeling my whole building so I ALSO get to wake up to HAMMERING right below me. It's like my own personal headache they gift wrap every morning just for me! Grrrrrr.

Kung Fu class was great last night. I knew it would be a great class when we started it off with iron wire, and the weather was perfect!

Chris invited me out to dinner with his family because his brother David is in town for spring break ... BUT of course I have to work. More grrrrrr. And I'm 110% positive that I'll be working all of Easter weekend too because EVERYONE requested off and they aren't even accepting requests anymore ... lol. :::sigh::: maybe some day I won't have to work every weekend ALL weekend.

Well I need to go running before work ... wooooosh!

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Squidbillies Hump Promo

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Don't ask ... it's a long story ... LOL ... I know ... many of you are probably very disturbed by this! But don't worry, that's perfectly normal.

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Extremely terrifying Clip

Hmmm ... it's really pretty outside. I think I'm going to go get a slushie ... yummmmmm! :D

Guess I won't be getting Premium ...

WELL today I'm finally feeling pretty much back to normal ... I'm still a little weak but not too weak to get a work-out in later! Although as I was driving to work I realized ... I've had a job since I was 16, (that's almost EIGHT years,) and yesterday was the SECOND time I've ever called in sick. I think just two times in eight years is a pretty good track record! :P

I don't understand. Why do people date another person when they know it's not going to work out? I mean, it's not like you have to KNOW that you're going to marry some one in order to date them, but there needs to be at least a shred of hope some where that things might work out in order to make it worth while! My roommate is currently "seeing some one" who, as she told me last night, "is totally incompatible with me! I definetly don't see us getting married." To which I think, then why bother? Besides the fact that some people are just too horny or feel too inadequate if they don't have a boyfriend every waking second. Sheesh.

Gas is now $3.25 and this makes me VERY sad.


You have no idea how much the martians from Sesame Street terrified me as a child.

Blahhh

Yuck! Sunday night after I went to bed I suddenly got sick and woke up with a gross fever. My temp. yesterday rose to 104.3 which was quite uncomfortable. I got up around 11:40am, ate some outmeal, layed down on the couch from 12:30 - 9:15pm, and then transferred myself back to my bed. It was the most unproductive day ever! lol

Thankfully today I feel a little better. Last time I checked my temp. it had lowered to 101 soooo that's a good sign. On the down side, I'm really weak, I still have a head ache,and my throat hurts slightly. I'm really hoping I didn't catch strep throat, which my roommate had the other week. Gahhhh. I'll have to wait a day or two and see.

Summer Fun

Yay! I'm so happy! I just looked at my online banking transaction history and I see that my tax refund was directly deposited into my account today! :D I'm actually a bit relieved because I wasn't sure if I filed my tax return correctly with all of my "mutual funds" and retirement account. PLUS I made sure to "maximise" my return as much as possible ... heeheeheeee :P

Unfortunetly, I won't be doing anything exciting with the money. In 500 more miles my car will have reached the 120k mark and I will be "due" for my 120k service check. Which isn't mandatory of course, but it's part of the routine maintenance for the car which is highly recommended, especially when your car has alot of mileage. Arrggg and it's $499 plus tax! :( I swear, I'm going to buy a bycicle and bike to all my destinations from now on! (Which ... isn't a bad idea!)

On another note, one of my favorite things to do on my day off from work, (or even when I'm not having a day off,) is to walk to Barnes'N'Noble and look at the books and magazines. Lately, my "area of interest" has been interior decorating, event/wedding planning, and recipes! (Actually, I've pretty much always been interested in interior decorating and event/wedding planning,) but I've added recipes to the roster of interests now. Damn I wish I had the money to go out and buy all the ingredients needed for the super delicious looking gourmet italian meals I was looking at yesterday! :P I want to start compiling a bunch of recipes in a recipe box, but the only problem is , I DON'T want to compile recipes that taste like crap. So ... I need to test them before I compile them ... or maybe I could compile them and THEN test them ... and THEN throw the recipe out if it stinks ... see my problem here? lol :P

Last night I realized that I haven't really gone anywhere lately. And by, "I haven't gone anywhere," I don't necessarily mean traveling to some distant state or country. I'm talking about places right here in California! So I made a list of things I want to do this summer. The list includes, (in no particular order,)
1. Go to the San Diego Zoo (It's supposed to be the best in the US!)
2. Go to Six Flags Magic Mountain and try the new roller coaster! Woo hoo! (Right now you can by a day pass for $59 and you get the entire year FREE! That's an entire YEAR for $59!!! AND you can use it at ANY Six Flags.) Wow ... I'm beginning to sound like an infommercial! :P
3. Visit the Getty Museum
4. Visit the Griffith Observatory
5. Go home to visit and maybe force Chris to come with me :P
6. At LEAST go home by myself, lol
And there were some other things on the list that I can't remember at the moment ... ooops ... I'll have to update the list later ... :P

Well, I need to go take advantage of this lovely 70 degree weather by taking a nice long run in the park before work. Hasta la vista, baby! ;)

Woo hoo, 1%! :P

To my credit, I HAVE visited alot of states. :P

Return of the Marshmallow Man

Remember how I said I had the urge to travel and that I was slightly jealous of Michelle's current trip abroad? Well, last night I just remembered that my dad and Carolyn are ALSO in the middle of a trip abroad! Today they're in Tel Aviv, a city in Israel. Over the next week they're visiting a bunch of historical sites like the Sea of Galilee, Jericho, Jerusalem, The Mount of Olives, and Mount Zion. (To name a few.) No fair no fair!

Arrrrgh. Today at the Elephant Bar I felt about as bloated as The Marshmallow Man with cramps that made me want to just curl up in a ball and die. lol. Okay, maybe not die, but atleast go home. :P On the other hand, this elderly woman I was serving informed me that, "You have such classic features! Cheek bones, and a little turned up nose. It's so darling!" LOL. It made me laugh.

Ho Hum.

I hate it when your car is dirty and it looks like it's going to rain really hard outside- and you get all excited about the upcoming free car wash- and it rains for like TWO seconds. WHICH of course leaves your car even MORE dirty then it was before.

I really want to do something ... go some where! I've been having the incredible urge to travel or do something ... probably because the only place I travel to is the Elephant Bar, lol. AND it doesn't help that Michelle is off exploring in Europe! But then again, I'm not jealous! Noooo, not me! :P I feel like I need a break in my routine ... which lately has gotten rather monotonous ... hmmm ...

YES, yes I know this blog is boring you. Why? Because I'm even boring myself. LOL.

An Ode to My Tooth

Today, I'm mourning the loss of my beloved smiley-faced tooth earring. Last night, as I was leaning over the sink to wash my face, my little tooth fell off my ear and went straight down the sink drain. Panicked, I looked down the drain and saw my little tooth wedged in the pipe smiling back at me. CRAP! I've got to save my tooth! I quickly ran to the closet and grabbed two wire hangers in hopes of bending them in a hook shape, sticking them down the drain, and saving my earring. But JUST as I began the rescue process, my little tooth slipped away right before my very eyes. I was devastated! My tooth earrings were my TRADEMARKS at work! I was very upset. I'm still upset. WAHHH!

On a brighter note, last night I also discovered a new favorite cereal; Kellogg's Eggo Waffle cereal! (In the cinnamon flavor!) I've always been a fan of Eggo Waffles, and this cereal actually tastes like eating little mini crunchy waffles! Sooooo yummy! AND, unlike some cereals, this cereal tastes great with or without milk. I've been munching on it as a dry snack. Mmmmmm! When I asked the president his opinion on Eggo Waffles, he responded, "I agree, Eggo Waffles are quite good."

Pimples can be like tornadoes. They can pop up suddenly with little warning, do their damage very quickly, and then you're just stuck with the aftermath. That just happened to me. Friday morning I woke up and with little warning, I had about 4 pimples just suddenly pop up, and by Friday evening they had errupted, and by Saturday morning they were gone. Now I'm just stuck with the aftermath; little pink spots that mark the place where the pimple used to be. The aftermath. Those little scar like spots that take forever to heal. Arrrgh!

Okay, I think I've covered enough random topics for the day! :P

Slightly Insane

The Elephant Bar has been closed for the past couple of days due to some remodeling that they're doing in the kitchen, so I've been forced to have a few days off. It has been SOOOO nice. I neeever get to have more than ONE day off in a row. I'll get Monday off, and maybe Thursday off, but never two or more days in a ROW. So yeah, I've been hanging out at Chris' place for the past couple of days. I've watched more tv in the past couple of days then I've watched in the past 8 months. NO, REALLY. I have.

I also had a $10 rewards card from Best Buy that I needed to spend, so I bought the dvd 'Father of the Bride.' I simply love that movie! And Steve Martin is great. I watched it yesterday, which made me really happy.

I've also gotten to observe my boyfriend acting quite insane this past week due to finals. Yes ... I think I'm just as relieved that his finals ended about 2 hours ago as he is! :P (Right now he's currently singing in a high-pitched voice about Toasty and Tang. Ohhhhh boy.) Chris: "Here's a question: do old women's eye brows turn white when they're old like mens?" In all fairness, Chris would like to explain that his downward spiral to insanity was brought on by the 49 page paper he turned in earlier today.

Tomorrow, the vacation ends. Back to work! Ohhhhh goody.

Yay for the 90's!

I was talking to Chris on the phone yesterday and during the conversation, he compared me to a "small asian with a big butt," and "a blonde haired, blue-eyed guy." (Don't ask!) So I responded by saying, "Well yeah, I actually do have some things in common with guys!" First I listed my love for food, and then how I love playing video games. "Wait-" Chris objected, "Super Mario really doesn't count Allison." What? I thought, I'm so hurt! My poor boyfriend is under the assumption that the only games I like are Super Mario Bros! Well, let me tell you, I had quite a few favorites back in the day! We're talking 90's Baby! Among my favorites to play while growing up were (In no particular order):
* Mario Brothers (all of them!)
* Super Mario Kart
* Yoshi's Island
* F-zero
* Street Fighter
* Mortal Kombat
* Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (kowabunga! lol)
* Mega Man (not to be confused with "O"-mega Man! :P)
* The Legend of Zelda
* Earth Worm Jim
* Donkey Kong Country
* Donkey Kong 2: Diddy's Kong Quest
* Pilotwings (I'm the MASTER of the rocket pack!!!)
* Tetris Attack
* Double Dragon
* Sonic
* Duck Tales
* Paper Boy 2 (oh, the memories!!!)
* Kirby's Dream Course
* Sim City (the origional before all those other SIMS games.)
* Sim City 2000
And probably some others that I can't think of right now ... unfortunetly I've been out of the loop since all the "new" stuff has come out. (Aside from playing SOME games, like Mario Party, Evil Dead, and Grand Theft Auto, lol!) Games have gotten much more complicated and detailed, and I no longer have any type of game system at my disposal to work with ... (except Chris' playstation 2 ... which I haven't really explored yet.) :P

Wedding Bells

Last night after watching American Idol, I stayed tuned in order to watch the premiere of the new tv show on Fox called "Wedding Bells." This new series is about three sisters who are wedding planners that took over the family wedding business after their (yet-to-be-seen) parents divorced. I must admit, I was quite excited when I found out there was going to be a show about wedding planners ... seeing that well ... I like to plan weddings.

The show has potential- every week they'll deal with bridezillas, runaway brides, mothers-of-the-brides and all the complications that accompany high-stress wedding days. There were several parts in last night's premiere that had me laughing out loud, and there were many parts that made me smile.

However, at times the comedy seemed a bit forced, like they were trying too hard. I just didn't fall in love with the characters ... although maybe I need to see more episodes in order to actually watch the characters develope. Part of the problem was that so many characters were introduced in last night's episode that there wasn't enough time during the hour to do any of them justice. But, that problem can be fixed as the show progresses.

In all, I love the idea of the show, and I found last night's show enjoyable, but there's definetly some kinks that need to get worked out before I get hooked. :P

On another note, the two girls that I want to get booted off of American Idol tonight are Antonella and Haley. I will be SOOOO pissed if Antonella makes it to the top 12!!!!! Ahhhh!

Random Thoughts

Random thoughts ...

* I could really go for a nice hot white mocha right now ... but I don't need one!

* Why can't I ever find orange flavored Schmirnoff anymore? It's my favorite!

* Kung Fu is really hard on my feet ... maybe I need new shoes ... it's a bad sign when the cushy part of your HEEL bruises ...

* Work was reeeally slow today.

* I want to go on a trip some where this summer!

* I'm really glad it's Easter season, that means my all time favorite candy in the world is out: Cadbury Cream Eggs!

* I have a confession ... I laughed so hard to myself when I saw the picture posted above that I had tears welling up in my eyes ... now isn't that sad?

Speaking of Boobs ...

Speaking of boobs, today I finally broke down and bought another strapless bra. You see ... awhile back I invested in a nice, strapless bra from Victoria's Secret because I didn't have any ... and it was $45! Unfortunetly, a few months ago it suddenly disappeared. So I've been doing the whole 'wearing spagetti straps with the bra straps showing' thing for the past few months. To me that just looks tackey, especially when your bra doesn't match what you're wearing and it's completely showing. So today I forced myself to get another one. Yes ... it was $45. And I HATE buying a bra if I don't have at least ONE pair of underwear that matches, so I spent another $14 on a pair of matching underwear. AHHH!

On the bright side, I decided to try the new "Secret Embrace" line, (pictured above,) and it's soooo comfortable! I highly recommend it to anyone who needs to make the underwear investment like I did. : P The bras and panties have no wires, (well, obviously the panties don't have wires, lol,) but they still offer support for the boobs. Most seamless/wireless bras don't get much support, but these do! And they're really smooth, so they look great underneath clothes.

Okay, I've spent far too much time talking about boobs and bras. LOL. But yes, Victoria's Secret Embrace line, wonderful! : D

Kellie Pickler's New Pickles

For those of you who watched American Idol at all last season, chances are you probably remember Kellie Pickler, that bubbly blonde from Albemarle, North Carolina. She definetly played the "dumb blonde" card by playing up her nieve-ness, i.e. mispronouncing calamari, (not even knowing what it was,) saying the word "salmon" like "SAL-mon," etc. Anyhow, she got to be rather annoying, to say the least. Although she didn't win the competition, she still toured with the "top 12" and has been making country albums.

Last week, she made an appearance on the American Idol elimination night to sing a song- and the first thing I noticed was her boobs. They were huge! It looked like they had ballooned from a 38-A cup to a double DD! Apparently, I wasn't the only one who noticed. Ryan Seacrest, (the show's host,) obviously distracted by how enormous Kellie's boobs had suddenly gotten, asked her, "So, after Idol, what have you been spending your money on?" With a sheepish grin, Kellie replied, "Shoes." Yeah. Right. "What else have you spent your money on?" Ryan asked further. Hmmmm ... I'm betting a boob job.

In addition to getting a fake looking boob job, Kellie's song that she sang and "co-wrote" left something to be desired. It was pretty dull. And not only was the song dull, but her stage presence was very lackluster. She stood in the same spot the whole time, with little to no arm movement, and showed very little facial expression. It was like she had no emotion. Auuugh.

And I'm still wondering, "Why would you want to go from an A-cup to a DD?" Not only is that going to stretch out your boobs and make them look bad, (in addition to fake,) but ... but ... I know alot of people who complain about having large boobs! My roommate (who has DD's,) is always complaining about how it hurts to run because her boobs are flopping all over the place, and that she can never find tops that fit because her boobs are too big. Now ... I'm not saying being fully-endowed is a bad thing ... but ... going from an A to DD? Now that's overkill.

Kelly Pickler

Hi all. Come Monday, Allison will most likely discuss Kelly's new boobs. Until then, just look at these before and after shots.

I May Have a Problem ...

Last night I realized I may have a problem ...

You see ... American Idol is the only show I have watched on a regular basis every year since season one. I mean sure, I'll watch other shows here and there for a season or two IF I have cable ... but ... but ... I have always been a devoted fan of American Idol, even before all the hype! Sooo what's the problem, you ask? Well ... American Idol just HAPPENS to be on during the same nights/times as my Kung Fu ... GAHHHHH! And last night, American Idol won out. Sifu is gonna hate me. :P

The Time Has Come

Well ... I successfully completed my FINAL 8-hour shift at Starbucks this morning- whoo hoo!!! No more getting up at 3:45am for me! Although ... quitting was slightly bitter sweet. On one hand, the people I worked with were really nice, I loved being able to walk to work, and I loved all the benefits. BUT ... after a year and a half I no longer appreciated working at 4:30am and working every day of the week ... BLAHHH! The time had come.

I was going to take this opportunity to do a bit of shopping ... you know ... to celebrate the end of Starbucks! But the problem is ... I'm so freak'in tired right now that all I wanna do is go konk out on my bed ... especially if I'm going to have any energy for kung fu tonight! Hmmm ... such a dilemma. :P

Oh, the cute sleepy hamster is a picture of how I feel right now ... only ... minus the cute. :P I don't look so cute with my hair all damp from just getting out of the shower!